All right. Hey everyone. I think we are live. Welcome back to the sober witch life podcast with your host, sunshine, the pink haired sober witch. Ah, oh my goodness, I’m realizing I’ve taken my notes down, but I didn’t change a whole bunch of stuff, so I was about to talk about the last episode. Yeah, we’re as always, you know, always going to start with a little bit of story. And I teetered and what I was going to do today on, like I penned and on. There’s a couple of things that I went back and forth on. And, you know, it was a matter of, we’ve been exploring the steps each of these weeks, and it was a matter of, do I go into the next step, which is a Step 11, or do I go back and talk a little bit more about shadow work? And then it hit me, I can actually talk a little bit about both here. So we’re going to start with that story time first.
If you didn’t know I was a witch or a psychic, you might label me as legit crazy right, even before recovery, I had occasionally talked to my guides. And I remember it was in 2018 when I really started doing it a lot, and I had left a I’d left a corporate job that I had been at for many, many, many years, and it had just gotten so horrible for my spirit. It just got, had gotten so horrible for my spirit that I remember I had started doing, you know, when I left, I didn’t have anything lined up. I started doing yoga every morning. I would do yin yoga every morning 90 minutes, and afterwards I’d be in Shavasana. And I would often just start talking to my guides and, you know, connecting. And I’d finally asked at some point, I said, is there anybody here? Is there? Is there? Is there a guy that’s able to help.I don’t want to find myself back in a position like I was like, I want to change my life. I want something different, and I didn’t know, I suppose, where that was going to take me, but I knew that I didn’t want to go backwards anymore. I didn’t want to find myself in the same kind of environment and betraying myself in the same way. And so I met B, my spirit guide, who I’ve now come to realize, is my higher self. And when I stepped in recovery, I began speaking to my guides every single day, every time I stopped and meditated, every time I stopped and reflected, you know, I would talk to them, never really asking for guidance, but just sharing conversations. So to speak. We are probably about five, maybe six months into my recovery. I started working with my ancestors. I started working with deities. I eventually learned to even recognize my higher self versus all of those other wonderful guides and protectors. And it’s really important that we’re able to do that, because sometimes our ancestors, and even some of the Spirit and deities, and you know, they can be a bit biased, you know, their perspective our higher self, that portion of our self that’s literally representative in the collective conscious and the divine, that divine part of our self is the truest, truest guide that we really have.
Since then, I have began connecting to my guides, into my higher self, for all sorts of different guidance. You know, I think I mentioned maybe last time that I’ve I’ve had disordered eating throughout my life, and so I’ll check in on my diet and what I’m feeding myself, and ask for guidance and strength, so that I know that I’m eating well and nourishing my body, right? Or, you know, should I take this supplement? Should I take that supplement? Whatever that may be, I will often allow them to guide me towards what it is I might need be, need to be engaging in. I also mentioned that I have a lot of shadows that I’ve been dealing with in my recovery. You don’t drink for 30 something years of your life and not hide from a lot of shadows. And so over the course of the last five years of my recovery, I’ve been actively working in them, engaging them, and asking my guides to show me them. Show me what I need to work on, show me what I need to focus on, show me what I’m resisting. And that’s that’s another thing, like, I will ask them when I’m in a pouty mood and don’t want to do something, whether or not it’s actual resistance to change or it’s something I really don’t need to be engaging with. I can’t think of a lot of things that I do today that I don’t engage my higher self, my intuition, my psychic abilities to help support but. I and how do I do this? I’ve spent so much time honing these gifts that I can engage in conversation directly. I can literally say yes or no and get auditory as well as somatic responses for things. That’s just a lot of practice. I’ve done that. I’ll pull cards.
So if I have yes or no questions, which I can usually frame a lot of things in a yes or no. I’ll do it in yes or no. If it’s something deeper meaning I need deeper insight, deeper exploration, a deeper or a different perspective. I’ll pull cards. I’ll pull oracle cards, tarot cards, you know, whatever it may be. Sometimes I’ll even do, like, some bibliomancy, like another form of divination, maybe the pendulum bibliomancy, shufflemancy, or something of that nature. If I I’m out and about, I can’t pull a card, you know, I’ll ask for from a message in another way. And why I’m sharing all of this with you. This is Step 11, right, meditating regularly and communicating with our guides to gain knowledge of what our purpose is, as well as the direction to carry it out. And I want to emphasize, like, in a lot of ways, this means purpose, like life purpose. But you know, as I was sitting and reflecting today about what I was going to share with you, I wanted to touch on it. It can be just purpose of right now. What is my purpose right now? What do I need to be doing? And I’ll give you a perfect example.